Wednesday, March 31, 2010

hope everyone had a great Wednesday!! mine started out ok but then ended up getting a crazy head ache!!! :( no fun...

*Genesis 48

It is always comforting to read of families that now matter what happen threw the years they still stick together. I have been blessed with a great family that has and will always support me. I know that not everyone in the world have a family to turn to if needed, i only hope and pray that they can turn to God in their times of need.

*Ruth 3

Wow, so back to the whole family thing.... this is a very devoted family, and it is wonderful to see!!! I do hope that Ruth is blessed with a wonderful man.

*Psalm 6

Pray and follow him, and he will protect you.

*Proverbs 17

"if you are cheerful, you feel good, if you are sad you hurt all over."
Take it from me, take the time to think before you act. People can say such hurtful things in moments of confutation. If you love someone and you are going threw a hard moment be careful to not do or say words that you cant take back. Words can stay with a person forever.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

well today was a fun filled day!!! It was lovely outside then i got to go get but little butt kicked in kick boxing class!!1 Fewwwwwwwwwww it was rough, and tomorrow i have another work out class!!! I think i may have lost my mind.....yep....i have.

now time to learn!!! :)

*Genesis 47

I would like to know what was in the water back then that people lived to be 130 and then some!

Also, does any one else feel kinda mad at Joseph for making everyone a slave for the King? I have a little bit of mixed emotions on that one.....


*Ruth 2

10 points for Boaz in my book! He is truly a man of God and shows it not only his actions but also in his words! yay :)

*Psalm 5

"Our Lord you bless those who live right, and you shield them with your kindness"

*Proverbs 16

This chapter is very empowering when it comes to just being wise, and really thinking before you act. I talked about that a little yesterday, and its just even more prevalent now. Only fools say things out of anger and hurt, yes it is very hard in the moment of things, but just breath in and say to yourself...."I am not a fool, i am a follower of God, and he will work threw me in this moment..." after you take that little second to think, then take the action that God would want you to take. Let him use you as a tool.

Monday, March 29, 2010

hello hello!

I hope that today was a good Monday for everyone!!!

*Genesis 46

I wonder what it was like to talk to God.... To know that he came to you and said "I will be with you" That has got to be one of the most amazing feelings ever!!

ok.....side note... holy moly there are lots of names in this chapter!! lost of Sons of so-in-so and brothers of another guy... brace yourself its kinda hard to follow.

*Ruth 1

Its very sad to read how much in pain Naomi is in. Its very understandable for her to hurt when she lost both her son and her husband. I think the saddest part is to see that she thinks God has left her.

*Psalm 4

This a beautiful night prayer. "Silently search your heart as you lie in bed. Offer the proper sacrifices and trust the Lord"

*Proverbs 15

I still really think when i have children i want them to read Proverbs, I wish i had read it so long ago, now saying that doesn't mean i would have understood it or really took it in, but id like to think i would have. God knows everything that we do, why wouldnt you want to really make sure you think before you act knowing hes watching. I am trying to live for him and him only, so that means i have to take the time to stop and think....."Is what im doing or saying glorify God" I think thats something that everyone should try and do. It has really helped me lately to be kinda and not say, think or do things out of anger or hurt.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Faith. It is believing God no matter what our eyes and emotions tell us. It is not enough just to know the words in our heads; we must believe them in our hearts. Faith is trusting God in the dark.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 : My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness so that Christ's power may rest in me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in my weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Romans 3:21-25
"But now a righteousness from God, apart from law, has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented him as the one who would turn aside His wrath, taking away sin through faith in his blood."

God thank you for giving me the chance to get closer to you, thank you helping me find the words to say and now the actions to take to put you first.
i love you with all of my heart and then some!
todays prayer:

there seem to be alot of people who are hurting right now. I want to lift all of those people to you Lord and to help them see that you can heal their hearts, and heal their minds. We all have so far to come to get to know you, just show us the way and help us when we fall. Living a life for you is the choice we have made. Help us to be strong against temptation and to forever show your love to others. When we are lost in the darkness that comes with life, help us to fully trust that you will show us the way.

Thank you God!!!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Scenes of you come rushing through
You are breaking me down
So break me into pieces
That will grow in the ground
I know that I deserve to die
For the murder in my heart
So be gentle with me Jesus
As you tear me apart

Please kill the liar
Kill the thief in me
You know that I am tired of their cruelty
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains

You burn away the ropes that bind
And hold me to the earth
The fire only leaves behind whatever is of worth
I begin to see reality
For the first time in my life
I know that I'm a shadow
But I'm dancing in your light

Teach me to be humble
Call me from the grave
Show me how to walk with you upon the waves
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Today had been a very hard day! please send some prayers this way, i need them.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by an offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased

C.S. Lewis

Friday, March 19, 2010

ahhhhh you gotta love Friday nights to your self watching chick flicks to remind yourself you are alone......this is why i watch the History Channel!!!!! :)


*Jeremiah 36

I wonder if any of the people that were in the space where Baruch read the first scroll took what he read to heart and turned back to God seeking forgiveness. Why are Kings always dumb!!!! Im sure there wasn't very nice things written on that scroll and im sure it was all very scary. Kings always have their heads way to far up their own butts they cant see or learn anything, and you'd think that over history people would learn from that. but you give someone a little power over people and they go crazy!

*Mark 8

Humans always feel the need for instant gratification with God. "we will believe you if you show us a sign!" People that is NOT faith!! when we hurt the most and can not see the light at the end of the tunnel because we have hit rock bottom, but we still pray and thank God for every moment of every day to live threw him and be pleasing unto him...that is faith. when we continue to love one another threw hardships and not look to the easy way out, that is faith. God loves us to much to make it easy. If we didn't fall and hurt, we'd never be able to understand the beauty that is God! Its like the saying "nothing worth fighting for comes easy" Following God is an every min of every day thing. Its a promise you make knowing you will mess up, but God is there to pick you right back up! Open yours eyes and see that there is nothing more wonderful than that!!! People will let you down every day but God will never leave you, he will always love you and forgive you when you DO mess up.

*2 Corinthians 4

"Our bodies gradually die, but we our-selfs are made stronger every day"...enough said!!!

*Daniel 2

so...dreams can be tricky to understand. I have never really thought much about my dreams, most of the time i cant even remember most of them. I do think its very interesting now back in the day it seems that God spoke to people threw dreams, i just wonder that maybe in todays world our minds are so clouded with sin that we cant hear what God is saying or showing us in our dreams...
help me to look in the mirror face to face with the things i need to change, teach me to humble myself.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

today was BEAUTIFUL!!!!
I got to wear a sun-dress! doesnt get much better than that!

*Genesis 42

ok still alittle hard for me to read the Joseph story cause the play i was in, but putting that aside, My heart goes out for the father, and does anyone think its not so nice of Joseph to play these games with his brothers, being a man of God and all....

*Judges 18

ok...very confused!!!

*Job 42

You cant beet a happy ending!! Job had to go threw so much but God blessed him in the end with the love of a wonderful family and a wonderful life. God is hard to understand sometimes....ok most of the time.. but he will work wonders in your life if you only open your heart to him and promise glorify him with every thing that you do and every word that you say.

*Proverbs 11

I really wish when i was in High School and really trying to figure out who i was and what i wanted for my life that someone told me to read Proverbs. I know that we all have to make our mistakes to learn from them but man!!! reading some of this stuff a while ago would have really been great for me, but i wonder if i would have really understood what i was reading. I wonder if I went back in time and read these words if i really would have taking them to heart.....

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

so i have found that i write when i cant turn my mind off, so i decided to write on here tonight and not in my journal......

so its Tuesday.... and I am watching Criminal Minds, and reading random verses in the breaks. Im trying to throw myself in the Word. I think I have been doing ok with that. I just still hurt in my heart. I know that in time it will get better, and im sooo happy to be where i am in being able to give everything to God. I want so badly to live for him and to seek him every moment. At times I am over whelmed with anger that i have towards myself for doing bad things. I have forgiving myself for the actions i made cause i know for a fact now that i wont make them again, im having a hard time with letting it go i guess.
Trying to think threw my feelings and thoughts. I pray for God to keep my love for him if it is God's will, and i Pray for God to give me the ability to let my human side let him go if i am ment for more. But i feel that i am just pushing away what God is trying to tell me cause im to stubborn to ever let him near my heart again.

at least i have been able to fill my heart with Gods love and even tho i have moments when i hurt, or let a few tears fall. I have been blessed with such support of friends and loved ones.

Tomorrow will be a wonderful day!! the sun will be shining and all of God's beauty will be shown!
"Don't worry about anything, but pray about everything. With thankful hearts offer up your prayers and requests to God"
Philippians 4:6
Man o Man these past few days have been crazy hard! School work was intense. But back to the Web!!!

*Genesis 40

Ok...so... as i read this story all i can think of is Show Songs from a play i was in....GO GO GO Joseph.......
hahaha sorry about that slight distraction, Not very cool on the servant part for forgetting all about Joseph, when he only asked him to do one small thing. Your heart has to go out to the Cook, he must have made some really bad tasting food to get put to death.

*Judges 16

Not a fan of Samson's girl!!! She never loved him and she tricked him just to sell him out for money...tisk tisk... I wonder why God picked his hair to give him strength.

*Job 40

Job needs to not push God... I feel that, that is a very bad move on his part. God is kinda scary when he mad, and when i say "kinda" i mean REALLY!!!!!!

*Proverbs 9

When reading Proverbs i always have a nice feeling inside, like i just read something really deep.
This chapter was about Wisdom, wisdom is a hard thing to come by, just take the first step: " Respect and Obey the Lord! this is the beginning of Wisdom"
hello everyone, sorry i have been away for a while, I have to switch over to a journal do to always being out and about! But im back now!!!!

Todays chapters:
Gen. 40
Judg. 16
Job. 40
Prv. 9

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

"Do not be like the people of this world, but let God change the way you think, then you will know how to do everything that is good and pleasing to Him."
Romans 12:2
Its a Rainy Day... :(

Rainy Day = hard day!

*Jeremiah 34

I do believe that God is a little upset for the not keeping their promise.. I dont have much to say about this chapter...

*Mark 6

This chapter is filled with stories that alot of people know. While i was reading i kept trying to maybe "read between the lines" to find some different meaning to them, but i couldn't. So for now i just see them as the same stories that i will always hear and enjoy.

*2 Corinthians 2

This chapter is about Forgiveness.....

"When people sin you should forgive and comfort them, so they wont give up in despair. You should make them sure of your love for them."
This is something that i try very hard to do as much as i can. It is not an easy thing to do to forgive when you have been hurt, but it is what God wants you to do and threw him you can find the ability to forgive. You can not have the ability to Love with out the ability to Forgive.

*Revelation 22

So i have read the last few chapters of Revelation and i feel for John who wrote it. I can not imagine the pressure he felt in having to see all these things and then having to relive them in writing them.

So i guess im not very talkative today, i think its the rain. It makes me feel lonely, but all is ok cause i love threw God and know that all will be ok.

till tomorrow..

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

o man today was loooonnnnnnnnnggggggggg!!!!!!!!!! but still a good day!

*Jeremiah 33

well i can see why people say "fear God" He dose not play with the people of Jerusalem. The best part is God always has a light at the end of the tunnel, yes he will make them pay, but then he promises wonderful, great things.

*Mark 5

ok...side note... the man is named Lots... because he has Lots of evil spirits in him....thats just not very creative.
but very cool story, I always find it wonderful how Jesus always picks the broken people to heal and then those people are the ones who always go and spread his word. = AMAZING!!!

*2 Corinthians 1

ok, so this is how i feel about this chapter. I really love how there are tons of stories about how God pulls people out of pain and heartache. I only wish it didnt take pain for me to truly give my life to him. But at the same time i couldn't be happier that im now here!!!! and i think i might like Paul! :)

*Revelation 21

I have come to enjoy reading Revelation for how detailed it is. I can clearly picture every thing from every story, and it makes me want to paint it, or draw it. The good. wonderful things and even the bad evil things.


Well, if i learned anything today it is just how wonderful God is and how much he loves me. I pray that everyone can know and experience his love!

until tomorrow!!!! i wish everyone a wonderful nights sleep!

Monday, March 8, 2010

In your presences God Im completely satisfied
alrighty!!!

*Jeremiah 32

so i love how God starts to talk about kicking some butt cause the people of Jerusalem start to worship other Gods. Then after he burns down their homes he expresses his love for them and promises that one day he will do all good things for them.... only GoD!

*Mark 4

This chapter really spoke to me. I am already familiar with the story's in Mark 4, but its like they told me something different then the first time i read them.
I am now in a "storm" in my life. The waves are getting big and the wind is going crazy. I am not with the person i love, but thats ok, cause God has made me in to a beautiful work of art, and i am growing closer to him every min. Even when the wind is pushing me down i have been able to stand up in faith. God has shown me that I was made to do wonderful things in his name and no one can take that from me. My seed has now found good ground, and i will grow more and more beautiful every min in Gods eyes, and only through him will i ever be fulfilled.

*1 Corinthians 16

This was a rather short chapter, 16:13 stood out to me,
"Keep alert. Be firm in your faith. Stay brave and strong. (14) Show love in everything you do."

and at the end there Paul has some intense words towards the folks who dont love the Lord.

*Revelation 20

Revelations is always very interesting to read. While reading this chapter m mind kept thinking of how the media has made every version of Heaven look like this. The Big white chair and the lines and lines of people waiting to get their name read from the book of life. ooo media!

well those are my thoughts! And if you see the sun outside of your window...GO OUTSIDE!!! I went to the park today to walk around( ok i know lame to go alone to the park) but it was a great chance to just breath.

Psalm 139: 14
I praise you because of the wonderful way you created me. Everything you do is marvelous! of this i have no doubt.

Dont ever let anyone make you doubt how beautiful you are, for God made you in his likeness. He made every part of you for a reason. Seek his love above anyone else. Follow him and he will give you what your heart truly desires.

ok, now to do school work!!! yayayaya!!!

till tomorrow!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Tomorrows verses:

Jeremiah 32
Mark 4
1 Corinthians 16
Revelation 20

And so it begins......

well hello every one!
My name is Ashleigh. I have been threw lots in life and have now made a promise to myself that i will be seeking to Glorify God in everything that i do. I have been walking around saying that i have been living a Christan life, but after a rather large heart breaking experience it made me see that i was not living the life i thought. So I have a Goal and new challenge and i welcome everyone to go threw this with me! I will be reading threw the Bible every day, doing it 4 chapters at a time. Im not currently attending a church, so thats why i have decided to make a Blog, I am trying to preach to myself but there will be many moments where i will need help so any in put and help for anyone is very welcome.


March 7, 2010
Todays Chapters:
Jeremiah 31
Mark 3
1 Corinthians 15
Revelation 19


*Jeremiah 31:

so while i was reading this chapter a few quotes stood out to me:
"I will protect them like a Shepherd guarding flock"
"We were like wild bulls, but you Lord broke us, and we learned to obey."

It gave me a since of hope that even tho God had split up the people of Israel and in comparison to their enemies they wouldn't stand a chance, but with God power and love Israel could return to it own land.

Jeremiah 31:37 = WONDERFUL!!!! gave me goose bumps!


*Mark 3

So people thought that Jesus had an evil spirit in him...... when he was healing the sick.....interesting. I guess i have to try to put myself in the shoes of the people back then....i wonder how i would have reacted to Jesus..

It is Beautiful that when the people still doubt him, he then calls them all brothers and sisters, he says that anyone who obeys God is his mother, sister, and brother.


*1 Corinthians 15

"You should be embarrassed that some people still dont know about God"
that to me should be herd as a wake up call for all of us. The followers of God need to share his word and his great Love.

I think that this chapter can be a little scary to ready if your afraid of death, but if you really look at the words it shows you that death is not something to fear if you are a follower of God, Death is leaving your weak human body for a strong beautiful spiritual body.

*Revelation 19

alrighty....im confused!!!!!! when reading Revelations should i look at it all as metaphor for something else?.....the rider is really Faith and truth?...

I think im gonna need to read this again....